End of an era?

I know this page isnt active yet, and thats probably a good thing. I can write this and know it wont actualy be read for a while, but I think it would be wrong of me to go through this without writing it down.

Im not going to go into details, or the timeline of the situation. It probably doesnt matter anymore. The why of this is becoming less important, and all that matter is how shitty I feel.

Things have changed with Kelley and I. Last Friday she made it known that she wanted us to seperate. After two years of us being in love, she decided its best for her to be single and she moved all my items out of her (our) bedroom, and made a new place for me to live in the room next to hers. She doesnt want me to move out, but Ive yet to figure out if she wants me to be there with her, or if it doesnt matter, as long as we dont share a room.

She explained that its her fault this is happening. She feels trapped and is sorry she had us share a room when we first moved in together, that she felt no longer comfortable with the level of our relationship, saying we arnt married, so we shouldnt act like it. She has told me many times how I was the one for her, and how she wanted to be married to me. Ive wanted the same too, when the time is right. I never wanted distance from her, I love her. And she admitted to still loving me, too.

So there it is. My best friend, my girl, Kelley, has pushed me aside and im alone to pick up the pieces while she enjoys herself in her new single life.

I havnt been able to sleep. Ive had no want to eat. I just want things to be better. We should be together, I think she knows it too.

So after almost two years, the era of Kelley and Gabe is over. She says maybe in time, after we both figure out who we are, maybe it could be back to where it was.

I think im going to cry again.

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